Why this blog?

It is not an attempt to sell you any physical object or thought. Very recently I opened up my thinking and views and found just how much better life can be. Life is not good all the time but when it is good it is so much better than it ever was. I have very bad days but it is the promise of the good that drives me out of bed on those mornings. My morals and core thoughts have not changed though my goals and daily outlook have. This is not a calling card for the psyche ward but rather a personal reflection into my thoughts and the way I see things.

Unfortunately my new thoughts and even what I write here are not understood or supported by a lot of those in my life. Sometimes I wish my change was not so traumatic or confusing but our society has taught us to be somewhat fearful of extremes. I sometimes wonder if anyone I know sees the whole me - I seriously doubt it! Though other people are very important, other's reactions do not motivate or constrain my actions but I still must live with the consequences.

I know that my past actions were not the best, despite good intentions; I lived for a while without a real purpose or desire to get more from life. I wasn't even striving for more when I changed but I was helped. Sometimes we are on the edge and we need a little push - that push and the resulting fallout, is one of the best things to ever happen to this hapless individual.
My notes will take me along the journey to happiness, a never-ending journey. Though happiness is a very vague concept, it is attainable in many ways. I guess sharing my thoughts and acts as a journal for the notable ones - so that I may never forget them.

I want people to realize that it is o.k. to think different, to strive for more than a nice car and a middle-class existence (not that these things are bad). Sometimes we all need reassurances when we attempt to do something different what I write is a reassurance for just one person being different - then it was worth all the effort. If you wish to comment on my thoughts, write to me now.